missing something and about my uncle in law

I miss singing and performing. Everytime I see pictures or videos in multiply or in youtube and when I read any article about performances, it makes me envious because nga I miss singing and performing.Wait a minute I shouldn't be feeling that way. I understand naman why I can't perform regular na because of my condition that I'm still in my recovery period. I just got out last April 20, 2008 from my last admission. But I'm strong enough to perform now. My blood count is normal. And I believe In Jesus Name that I'm 1000% healed and I believe In God's time I'll be back performing soon. I wonder what God is planning in my life now?
I also miss my Uncle In Law, his name is Gerald Denoga, who just left and went back Home to God last Saturday Night August 9, 2008. He's still young, he's 33 with a wife and 3 kids. We have the same case. We're batchmates... meaning... We have the same doctor and we always have the schedule in Chemo... Actually, I never met him. I just spoke to him twice on the phone while we're in the hospital. We can't see each other because we might get infected... Leukemia patients are very delicate. We easily get infected. We always talk about good stuff and experiences during treatment, My death experience and what we missed outside, also about his wife and kids, Our Family, our career etc... I always tell him... whenever you feel pain.. think of Alcohol, hehe (joke). I encouraged him to think of Jesus. That every treatment and pain that the chemo and blood that is entering our body will be the Blood of Christ. I said everything will be fine as long you resurrender every to Him.. He just kept quiet and listened. I just hope He got saved after everything I shared to him. After that he changed the topic na. When we got home, We kept on texting to say kumusta and exchanging of blood count results. He wondered why his blood count is not incresing that much compared to mine. That worried me and prayed for him everyday that his blood count will be normal. I told him on text na dapat mag normal na yan.... para on our remission magvi-victory party tayo. Sabay dapat tayo mag party. He promised me that. Last Friday morning August 8, 2008 I learned from my mom that Uncle Gie had a relapse last July.. He's been admitted for more than a month. That shocked me. God made me realized na He gave so much favor. He blessed me and gave me a 2nd chance to live.
I remember the last text I sent more than a month ago before he relapsed. I said "*Hugz*", He said "what is that for?" I replied "Just being a sweet niece". He laughed and hugged me too on Text. hehe. After that I didn't text him na baka nanguangulit na siya sa akin. But my heart kept on telling me to text him, to share God's Word and to pray for him.
Last Friday Morning August 08, 2008, I learned from mom that Uncle Gie had a relapse last July. He's been admitted more than a month. It worried me alot for him. And I prayed to God that he'll get well soon. I've wanted to visit him but my mom stopped me because I might get infected. Because the 7th floor of Makati Medical Center is the Infectious area. My friend resident doctor texted me that Uncle Gie is her patient. He was really in bad shape.. his gums were soaring. bleeding, blood count were down etc..... He couldn't find a bone marrow match. Last June, I texted him that our Doctor found 106 possible donors for my bone marrow transplant. He told me that he still has no donors yet even sa states.... He needs the match badly. He told me that I'm so blessed to have those 106 donors. Mag transplant na daw ako. But God and my heart is telling me that I won't be needing the transplant na. Not Even his siblings hindi din sila magka-match. 'til his death wala pa rin siyang mahanap na ka match.
I had my blood test last saturday night August 9, 2008,( Praise God that that my blood count is Normal). That time My heart is been telling me to visit him... but mom couldn't let me go to the 7th floor.
August 11, 2008 Monday morning... I tried to call The Onco area of MMC. I asked about Uncle Gie... Nurses told me that he's expired na meaning He passed away na last August 9 Saturday night the time I was in MMC. I feel so guilty that I didn't see him. But I'm happy na din na wala na yung sufferings niya.
He's back home with God. And I know that he's happy now In God's Arms. We will see each other In God's Time.

Days in the Hospital From September 24, 2007- April 20, 2008

From September 24, 2007 to April 20, 2008.

I feel so blessed and grateful to be alive. It won't show in my face with these photos the pain I felt. especially when I had my death experience last April 7, 2008 with Sepsis (Septic Shock) at the ICU (See photos Days In the Hospital at my Multiply account www.sopranini.multiply.com). All I can say that my FAITH in God, My Spiritual Family (Church), My very supportive Family and friends prayed for me and I am Christ centered (I know God is In me) Saved my Life. I need more prayers from you because I'll undergo Bone Marrow Transplant soon. I need to raise P5Million for the transplant and I havn't reached that amount yet. I still need your support. I pray that you'll be God's Instrument to help me in prayers and in financial needs for the transplant.

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God bless to all.

Septic Shock April 7, 2008

Hi All,

I got this from the Email of my LoloDad. He sent this to my mom and to my mom's siblings.

I hope by reading this letter will make you inspire. Honestly, I appreciate life now. God made me realize how life is so wonderful.

God bless.

Alexis Edralin

Dear Folks,

Alexis texted me the other day to say "It's been one month since I had my
septic shock." That was a good reminder for all of us to remember when we
go to church on Sunday to say a prayer of thanksgiving to thank God for
saving our dear Alexis from the jaws of death on that day, Monday 7 April
2008.

Septic derives from the word sepsis, a toxic condition resulting from the
spread of bacteria from a focus of infection in the blood. Sepsis was the
one that killed a granddaughter of Chairman Abalos a few weeks earlier.

I remember that Monday very well. I was in Alexis room at MMC. I saw her
gasping for breath, rising occasionally clutching at straws in the air.
She was clearly having an attack somewhere, and the nurse on duty had
difficulty connecting to the oxygen outlet on the wall. It was a holiday
and we could not get help. Somebody else was answering the celfone of Dr.
Lopez. Nobody knew where he was. We had difficulty getting people to
match our concern for the evolving emergency, a matter of life and death.
I charged at the nurse station in frustration, finding people there
dutifully writing on pads of paper. "Please shake a leg. This hospital
killed my son. You are not going to kill my granddaughter."

A doctor emerged from nowhere and the oxygen finally was activated. My
task was to get blood from the Red Cross and I had to go there myself
because it was a holiday. And so I left. That was probably good because I
would have been hollering at everybody and not be of help at all. But no
sooner had I arrived at the Red Cross when Mom called me up on my cel to
say "nagkakagulo na sa hospital." But I could not go back without the
blood. Fortunately, I found Dick Gordon in his office and was able to con
him again for his third platelets donation (costing now P36,000.00). I got
back in Alexis room to find Linds and Missy already there to provide
support for Cherry. I found out Alexis actually succumed when I was away
but was quickly revived. She was recalling a brief mystical trip. She had
to be moved to the ICU to let the doctors focus on tracking down the
infection. A kidney specialist was brought in to fend off an attack on the
kidneys, which would necessitate dialysis. It was a listless night for my
soprano. It took all of three days to track down and expel the bothersome
bacteria.

Looking back, we thank the Lord because Alexis is alive today only because
He willed that she live. Let's pray that her remission will be long
lasting, that she will succeed in keeping her blood counts at normal
levels, and that she will not need a bone marrow transplant for the
long-term cure. And will be able to sing praises to God. God is good.
Thank you Lord.

Dad